Wednesday, November 30, 2005

food made with love

Today, M made my lunch. I had leftover homemade macaroni and cheese, a little salad, and I'm staring at a homemade brownie.

And I thought,"This is how all those guys back in the days of housewives knew they were loved - they opened their lunches, and could taste it!"

There's definitely a difference to the taste of food made with love. That's why the lunch I had today was better than any lunch or dinner I could ever buy in even the fanciest restaurant on Earth!


/romantic, cheesey cheeseball entry #1

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Bad Decision

Don't go! That's my advice for you if you ever receive an invitation to a high school reunion. THROW IT AWAY! Of course, most people know this, as did I, but at a moment of weakness at my little sister's bridal shower, I told her new sister-in-law that I'd go with her to our high school reunion.

Dumb, dumb, dumb.

First, I spent too much $$ on a new outfit. Yes, it's nice that I got a new outfit out of the deal, but it wasn't necessary and it wasn't worth it!

Also, the stupid event cost $50! Could I have found something better to do with $50?!?! YES OF COURSE! The food wasn't good, there were no activities, and I just talked to people I already talk to. Waste.of.money!

So, I got all dressed up and all that, and my sister's sister-in-law met me at my parent's house. Another girl from my class (incidentally, there were 150 people in my graduating class) with whom I was not friends, and who I have talked to only on Friendster, called me that afternoon and so she decided to go with us. So we all got into the car and drove to the place.

We went in, and there was this 'in memory of' sign near the door, with three names on it. One was a girl who died maybe our freshman year of cancer. Another was a girl who was in a stupid car accident. The third was a girl I had worked with at Brooks (like CVS) all throughout our senior year. She had a baby in maybe April or May of that year. I saw her a couple of times during my first year of college, but never again after that. She was sweet, and very quiet, and had I not worked with her at Brooks, I never would have talked to her. I was hoping she'd be at the reunion, as I hadn't heard about her at all since high school. Turns out, she married the father of the baby (who was also in our class), had another baby, and then got cancer and died in 2002. AWFUL story. Needless to say, that was sort of threw me off as the first thing I saw when I walked into an overall overwhelming situation.

My old Spanish teacher, who took us to Spain in high school, and with whom I've kept in touch, was there at the door, thank God! So I talked to her while I got my bearings (I hate walking into crowded places where I know people). I saw my friends accross the room, so the sister's sister-in-law and I walked over there.

My friend Kristin was talking to this girl who was sort of friends with us in high school, but who had TORTURED me in middle school (she pleaded for forgiveness our senior year, having decided karma was the reason she no longer had friends at that point, but that I was friends with the people she had been friends with in middle school). So Kristin has a son who's six. She told this girl that everytime she looked at his chin, she thought of her because she had made so much fun of her chin in high school. I thought to myself, "Funny. Everytime I had to discuss with an adolescent girl at camp/GS events why not to be mean to other people, I thought of her, too." I kept that to myself, though. This event did not need to be anymore uncomfortable.

Otherwise, it was just boring and a waste of time. I talked to my friends, which was fun, but it would have been more fun to go out to dinner. There were no mixing activities or anything at all, so there was no opportunity to talk to other people. So, everyone talked to the same people they talked to in high school, and nobody else. So dumb.

Then the music got too loud, some dumb jock guy got the microphone and started singing, and it was finally time to go.

So that's that. It was very surreal and strange to see all those people again and to remember them.

Sunday, November 20, 2005


I don't have many old pictures on my computer, so here's one from the summer.

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Things I like that others don't (as much)

1. Ketchup!
2. Math
3. Driving to work
4. Taking taxis
5. Watching TV
6. Playing video games (only 12-year-old boys like this as much as I do)
7. Craft fairs
8. Getting coffee at a coffee shop before work
9. Having other people cook for me
10. Skunks
11. Purple
12. the movie Beaches
13. Driving the whole way during looooong car rides
14. Staying in hotels
15. The Three Stooges (me and all the 50+ men)
16. Howard Stern (I think he's funny!)
17. Lifetime Movies
18. Howard the Duck
19. Teenagers
20. Taxes

Thursday, November 10, 2005

For Jojo


A Child Loaned

I'll lend you for a little time a child of mine," He said,
"for you to love the whole while she lives.
It may be six or seven years or twenty-two or three,
but will you, till I call her back, take care of her for me?"

"She'll bring her charm to gladden you,
and should her stay be brief,
you'll have her lovely memories
as solace for your grief."

"I cannot promise she will stay
since all from earth return,
but there are lessons taught down there
I want this child to help you learn."

"I've looked this wide world over
in my search for teachers true,
and from the things that crowd life's lane
I have selected you."

"Now will you give her all your love
nor think the labor vain,
Nor hate me when I come to call
and take her back again?"

"I fancied that I heard them say
'Dear Lord, Thy will be done,
for all the joy the child shall bring
the risk of grief we'll run.'

'We'll shelter her with tenderness;
We'll love her while we may,
and for the happiness we've known
forever grateful stay.
But should the angels call for her
much sooner than we planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes
and try to understand.'"

- adapted from Edgar Guest
This is for Jojo, a blogging friend of mine whose daughter Kristin's battle with her severe brain injuries ended yesterday. Please keep Jojo's family in your thoughts and prayers.